I have been struggling with my weight for YEARS. I joined Weight Watchers. I joined Nutri-System. I drank Slim Fast for months. I went on a low fat diet, limiting my fat grams to 20 per day. I tried Atkins. I did Step Aerobics 3x a week for couple months. I did a European Wrap. I ate one meal a day for a month. I purchased a 3year gym membership, and went maybe 10 times. I hired a personal trainer, and went to 10 sessions and never went again. I bought books that I never read. I bought fruit that I never ate. I bought clothes to motivate me that I never wore.
So when I bought some expensive running shoes, and said I was going to train for a half marathon…..I had so much self-doubt. My weight had always dropped off, only to come back with a vengeance. It was a never-ending cycle. Until the cycle finally ended. At my heaviest, I weighed 236lbs. I wore a size 20 pants. Today I’m in a size 10 jeans, and I have 25lbs to go. At one point a couple years ago, I was 12lbs from my goal. So, the last couple years I’ve had a 13lb gain. Not good. Not for someone like me.
Running has helped me keep the weight off, and has kept it from coming back with a vengeance. I joined a boot camp almost 2 months ago, and I’ve been doing that AND running. By now I should be a size ZERO! But I’m not. Because my eating SUCKS. I always thought I couldn’t drop the weight because I wasn’t active enough. Well now I’m active almost everyday, and I’m still having a hard time dropping the weight. So it’s my food. And bad choices.
Boot camp has given me a new brain. I still criticize my efforts, but I criticize MUCH LESS. I still give that stupid scale some power, but it’s much more powerless than it used to be!! When I’m done with my 5:30am workout…I get in my car and I am SMILING. I am happy. I am conquering. I’m winning.
And I’m not done yet.